Friday, March 27, 2009

Blue day

Today has been a bit of a blue day, despite the warmer temperatures and the beautiful sunshine. Don't know what puts me here, but I don't like it. This morning the kids and I set out to do a few things at the gym (climbing wall and swim) and we could do neither because we had gone at the wrong time. Bummer. So we headed to the mall where the kids were excited to play, only to find that they both towered over the "You Can't Be Taller Than This Line" line. Double bummer.

So we just hung out, looked at the poor puppies stuck inside their smelly enclosures, and the kids ate some ice cream. As we wandered around Build-A-Bear Workshop I started to become irritated. I'm frustrated that I can't provide for my kids, take them out and buy them something once in a while that isn't second-hand. I worry that I won't be able to do it on my own if full custody is the path that is taken. How will I be able to handle it all...emotionally, financially, mentally?

As much as I hate to admit it, I need to be taken care of. I need someone to be there who can help me pick up the pieces of a rough day, to hold me tight and tell me everything will be OK.

Brandon entertained us by entertaining the puppies

Amanda gave me her best *brooding* look

B and me (could I look any worse?)

Brain freeze!


Unknown said...

Kim, you are such an amazing mom with amazing kiddos! It is tough when expectations of the day are not met. I want you to know that I was raised with very little. My parents made do with what we had. They are constantly apologizing still for not being able to give us the things others had. I would NOT change anything about my childhood EVER! You are making memories, even if they do not come about through money. You are teaching your children to be resourceful, and that is such an important life-long lesson. Great pics! :)

Anonymous said...

Dearest Kim, I know how you feel. When I raised the 5 kids we had to give up a lot. It never changes the good values you teach them. Its only things. How about honesty, character, and self worth. If you dont't have it you wonn't be able to teach it to your kids. Never mind wollowing in self pity , pull up yourboot straps and take a giant leap forward. God is there within you find him and for the moment it will give you the strength and peace you need. Love is all around you, your children your friend, your family and even Dave he loves you to death. However it wasn't enough to keep you together. Guess what you do not need a man to define who you are. You are a fabulous writer get going girl gather those memories and put them in a book and send them to a publisher what have you got to lose. Who gave you that talent? again look within the God who made you wants so much for you he has given you all the tools. Take your meds. The kids are not as concerned about the monatary value as you are. I know sometimes peer pressure can be great. They always look great! Lots of Love to you and the kids. Carol G.