The doctor is IN

I'm thinking about opening up my own psychiatric help booth.  I'll make it out of cardboard so I can carry it around with me wherever I go.  I swear to God, I attract every angry human being in the greater Denver area.  And I don't mean romantic attraction - I'm talking about the energy of negative, angry people.

These people flock to me like flies on shit, and I can't figure out what kind of odor I'm emitting that makes my ear so bendable.  I attracted them in high school, I married one, I work with several.  Hundred.  Is there a light beaming around me that only angry people see?  What do they see that makes them say, "Hey, I'm going to open up to and unload on that woman right there."

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to be the kind of person that people feel comfortable enough to open up to, but why can't I attract the ones that enhance my life?  When angry people start to vent it's all downhill, and if you're the one they vent to you're dragged down right along with them.  It's draining... it's depressing... it's discouraging.

Am I helpful to these people?  Do I really give feedback, or listen that well, or respond in ways they find comforting?  Or is it that I'm subconsciously saying things that validate their anger, thus keeping them in their familiar pool of negative energy?  If I said, "Quit your goddam bitching and get a grip," would they feel differently?

So back to my earlier question - what do I need to do to attract positive people into my life?  Honestly I'm not sure they exist!  I can see it now... Monster Quest - People Who Are Happy and Emit Positive Energy... Next week, Sasquach!  Where are the enhancers to oppose the dragger-downers?  Where are the fun ones?  The ones who smile at the sunshine and laugh at the rain?

OK, so from what I understand about the Law of Attraction, if we want to receive positive energy we must emit positive energy.  So shit, everything I just wrote is negative to the nth degree!  Guess what that means?  Yup, more of the same will come back to me.

So I guess I've answered my question - if I want to attract the positive into my life, I have to put the positive out there.  If I continue to dwell in negativity, whether my own or others', I will continue to attract more of that same negativity.  While it seems simple, it is actually SO. DAMN. DIFFICULT.  UGGGHHH!!

Thank you to all the readers who made it through this rambly, nonsensicle post - in reading such a negative post you've probably been dragged down into my well of poo, so let's end on a good note so we can all breathe some fresh air and allow for some good in our lives.

I read this today from someone on facebook, and I think it's a perfect way to end:

If you want happiness for an hour—take a nap.
If you want happiness for a day—go fishing.
If you want happiness for a month—get married.
If you want happiness for a year—inherit a fortune.
If you want happiness for a lifetime—help someone else.

– Chinese Proverb