Thursday, April 7, 2011

Spring?


I need warmth, sunlight, and pretty greenery now more than I have in a long time.  A really long time.  I know up here in northern Wyoming I can't expect the seasons to be well, seasonal, but it would be nice if things made sense from one day to the next.  Yesterday was sunny and gorgeous and here we are today...snow, rain, sleet, and more snow.

I find myself at a point in life that I always hope I'll never find myself in, but can't seem to avoid.  I hate my job.  I mean, I really HATE. MY. JOB.  I find myself riddled with anxiety the night before, knowing I have to wake up and do it all over again at an ungodly hour, and I have to fight back tears of frustration while I'm there. 

I used to very much enjoy my job at TSA and I can point the change in feelings to two things:  management and TSA as a whole.  I know those are two very broad reasons, but unfortunately I can't go into a whole lot of detail with either.  Let's just say that the way the joint is run and the way things are handled (and I've learned it doesn't matter whether there are seven or 700 of us, it's all broken) is embarrassing.  And as far as TSA goes, I would say that I don't believe in its mission, but I'm not entirely confident even TSA knows its mission.  In short...its a joke and has become one of the worst organizations I've ever worked for.

Having said that, I have been looking for a new job but again, two things have held me back.  First and foremost, a change would mean big changes for the kids, as my income would undoubtedly plummet and my schedule would change.  I fear those would throw us all off after having successfully transplanted ourselves into a whole new realm six months ago.  Secondly, what I'm finding are jobs that either pay minimum wage or require a degree (think Pizza Hut or OR nurse). 

So tonight, after spending much of my time after work and before picking up the kids from school bawling like a baby, I sat down with them and let them know my dilemma.  Amanda said immediately, "Mom, get a new job...we're happy if you're happy.  You have to be happy Mom, it's not worth it if you aren't."  Brandon had a few concerns (mainly with the schedule) but nothing we can't work with. 

With my kids' blessings I will search harder and do whatever it takes to find something that doesn't leave me in a pile at the end of the day.  If anyone has anything available in Cody, PLEASE let me know... 

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11 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are violating the rights of US citizens, no one should feel a bit sorry for you. Now go out and quit your job, deal with the hardships and repent for your crimes, and you will be a hero in my eyes. Do you have any other kind of experience?

Anonymous said...

Same anonymous as before. Check out these guys, I'm not sure but I think they probably make a lot more than you do now. You would have to be gone half the time, but you can live about anywhere you want to...but you would have to fly and be subject to being violated by the TSA. But it's not just a job, it's an adventure! (I know, I work up there, but not for them) Also do a little research on an interviewing process called "Targeted Selection". (assuming you haven't heard of it) Many large companies are using this program now.

http://www.doyonuniversal.com/north-slope-expansion

Sako96 said...

Anonymous; Please cut the lady some slack...she needs to find something where she can be there for her kids.
I spent most of 20 years in a Gov Bunker "Protecting the Free World"
now I wish I had spent that time with
my grown sons. They were the world I should have been protecting, not just providing for.

Anonymous said...

Same anon again. Well Sako, I'll cut her some slack when she stops violating peoples rights. Now what kind of schedule were you working when you were protecting the free world? Having worked at several places, I can tell you that you will get more and better time with your loved ones when you work 2 weeks on and 2 weeks off, than if you work the normal 5 or 6 days a week thing. Some work 3 weeks on and 3 weeks off up there, that's a good schedule too.

Anonymous said...

Bravo to the first (original) Anonymous! And Sako96, remember that this single mom you defend violates other single moms' bodies and children every day she shows up to "work" for the unspeakably vile TSA.

Lady, you're sponging off us financially while you assault us sexually. Quit, for pity's sake. Rejoin the human race.

Sako96 said...

When you are military; you can't post your own schedule. I was one of 12 people in the world who could perform my job (at that time, long ago, we were in a nuclear standoff). I was locked behind a vault door.

YOU are verbally assaulting this poor lady; she's doing the best she can with the cards dealt her. Lay off her kid_anonymous.

Anonymous said...

Don't listen to what some say. Things alway have a way of working out.

Anonymous said...

You are doing a Great job. Keep your kids the priority, If you think about it things always seem to have a way of working out.

The Accidental Somebody said...

Right now what I need in my life is support, not attacks on me personally. So if you have issues with TSA, take them up with the organization don't harass me here. While I normally wouldn't censor comments, I am now. Take your agenda elsewhere.

Thank you to those who are bein' cool. I appreciate it.

Kim

Carol the grandma said...

My comment is this " I tell you everything that is really nothing and nothing of what is everything, do not be fooled by what I am saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear what I am not saying. A wonderful quote by Charlie C. finn This is how I feel about this post Kim, there is so much more I know you would love to say. Carol G.

The Accidental Somebody said...

Very much so Carol. ;)