|"Kim eating a cookie - favorite past time." (on back of photo...still love my cookies to this day!)|
This is it, this picture right here - this is the turning point in my life when I became acutely aware of how I looked, aware of how others perceived me, aware of how heavy life all of a sudden became to me. I vividly remember being at a Jr. High dance one night not long after this picture was taken, and at one point someone formed a snake. Everyone grabbed hands and I held my free hand out to grab the hand of a boy, and as I reached out he recoiled in horror, making a face that said "Ewwww you are GROSS, I am NOT touching you!!" Never before had I thought I would gross someone out. Never before had I imagined anyone would care about what I looked like. Never again would I think no one gave a shit.
Before the next school year began I had begun growing out my hair, I had filled out a little into what would become a very 'well-rounded' woman, and while I did become prettier on the outside I remained very self-conscious on the inside. So as I look at my own kids who are so damn adorable in my eyes, I wonder what and when their turning points will be, what will be the catalyst into their own adult identity burdens...
|Nicely filled out by senior pics...look at those cheeks!|