It's a Sunday afternoon and I'm still in bed. I've been awake for about an hour and a half, but I can't seem to pry myself out from beneath the covers except to pee and grab my laptop. My time in bed isn't completely wasted - I've been doing a LOT of thinking and I've found a challenge for myself. So many things are not right in my world, in my life. So many things are making me unhappy, and most of them are because of me. I have habits, ways of thinking, fears, fears, and even more fears that keep me stagnant and miserable.
Change is on the menu for the next thirty days. I could change the world, I could change my hairstyle, I could change my attitude, I could maybe get around to changing my underwear. Regardless of what it is, change must take place. I hate change. Well, I like to change the easy stuff…like my hair. But changing the big life events…like my attitude, or my marital status, that’s terrifying. I’m such a creature of habit. Taco Bell #1 combo meal please, no onions on the burrito and a Dr. Pepper, two packets of the HOT sauce, one for each item. I’m happy. There’s nothing worse than stepping outside that comfort zone, braving something new, only to hate it.
OK, that’s it. Thirty days of change. I will take the month of April plus a couple of days since it’s only March 29, and make it a month of change. It’s only fitting, as the season is changing, the landscape is changing , the weather is changing. For thirty days I’ll take those things that aren’t quite right in my life, things that are against the grain of how I want to live my life, and make some changes. I will overhaul, tweak, adjust, pave new roads, cover up old ones that are taking me nowhere. Either way, change is necessary and I think the next month will be scary, exciting, and fun. It’s time to step outside my box, or my bed as it were, and do something with my pathetic self.
So if you dare, take this journey with me. Come along for the ride, as I will be posting every day or more often if the feeling hits me. The first thing on my agenda is to get out of bed...
Let's rock and roll!
I've been inspired to invite others to join me in my 30 Days of Change. If you have anything that needs change (lose 20 pounds, be a better parent, quit smoking, smile more...anything) please share it with me! Email me daily, hourly, May 1st, when the mood strikes. I just want to know your struggles, successes, what works for you, if you feel you are failing at making the change you desire, if you are wildly successful or if you give up after three days. Share with me anonymously or out loud - I would love to compile experiences into a book so that others can learn from what changes can be made in others' lives. Also, it doesn't have to be within the month of April...just 30 days of change. Let's see what we can do!