It's amazing how changing just one factor in my life has caused so many others to fall into place. I had my night schedule for over a year, and the craziest sleep schedule I've ever suffered through. My lack of sleep caused my depression to worsen, I was not functioning as well as I needed to in every area of my life, and it was extremely frustrating.
Changing to days has enabled me to regularly catch a 10:00 bedtime (even on my days off), giving me a good eight hours of straight sleep. With it being as hot as it's been, I haven't had very sound sleep, but it's better than I've had in months. I have found my way back into the gym where today I swam a half mile almost effortlessly. It was a physical struggle because I'm not a strong swimmer, but mentally I was capable and eager to finish the full half mile. I felt good when I was finished, proud of myself for getting back into the water.
My kids have gotten along the past few days like they were best friends, offering each other words of encouragement, playfulness, and respect. I haven't seen that in a while, maybe because they were dealing with a mother who was so out of balance she hardly knew what to do with herself.
Tonight instead of cleaning house just to keep myself awake, the kids and I played a few games of Uno. We laughed and cheered, Amanda helping her brother along the way as he had just learned how to play and she is a veteran. What a fun time it was and I can't wait for more.
I'm excited to see what else is in store...