Do you ever get the urge to jab searing hot pokers into your eyeballs,
or smash a sledgehammer into your skull,
or run your fingers through a circular saw, thinking
Man this oughta feel good!
Yeah, me neither, which is why I'm still trying to figure out why I've chosen to participate in the mutilation of my soul...
I have applied for a promotion.
I am voluntarily trying to climb a rickety, smelly, rotting, degrading TSA ladder.
I can't decide whether I'm crazy or just fucking stupid.
Probably both.
Here's how I justify being so mean to myself -
It won't be forever...starting school means something else is on my horizon. It better hurry the fuck up.
I could use the extra money. Mama's gotta pay the bills and raise her kids, and I'll do whatever it takes to make sure that happens, and turns out as good as possible.
The team I work with is in desperate need of help. Our leadership is for shit and the morale is for even worse shit. I honestly feel I can do a much better job than how we're being managed now.
Nothing wrong with a little challenge, anyway.
This morning I had my interview over the phone. That's quite possibly the worst way to conduct an interview, but I had no choice so I sucked it up and gave it my best.
So if you hear wailing and gnashing of teeth coming from my little frozen corner of the earth, it means I got the promotion.
Wish me luck!
"I never apologize. I'm sorry, but that's just the way I am." ~Homer Simpson
13 comments:
It's amazing, but when you need more money, you'll find yourself doing some really stupid shit.
Good Luck!!
Hey good luck... sounds like they desperately need someone like you..... so I am sending out good karma thoughts for ya from out here in Portland!
I am sure you did well. You have such a strong and honest spirit. If they can't see that then fuck them. Feel good that you made the step towards bettering (if that's a word) the work environment you are in. Stand strong woman . . . you've been through worse. You have the posts to prove it. I wish you well.
Good luck. I have my fingers crossed and good vibes headed your way! :-)
Thank you for the vibes!
I appreciate that, and yes I'd say bettering is a word. If it wasn't before, it is now! If I get it I'll do my best to do right by the team, if I don't get it I'll work harder to get through school and get the hell out. :)
Desperation is an understatement! Thank you for the thoughts, send some warm ones this way if you have them in Portland, it's freezing in Wyoming!
Thank you Diana!
Oh man you hit the nail on the head! :/
Well I hope you get it. Maybe it will turn out better than you think and you will actually enjoy it? Who knows. So fingers crossed!
Thanks Roxy, I figured I'd give it a shot and see what happens!
I hope your promotion comes through. Working sometimes sucks, particularly when there is lousy management. But the thing is, it's better to get paid more for doing it than being paid less. And there is that off chance, you can make things better for everyone. Not to be a cynic, but even if not, get top dollar for what you do. (On my tombstone, I want the words "She needed the money".
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